Before I ramble on, I’ll come
clean and tell you that I failed to clear my opening height of 5.41m (17’9”) on
Wednesday. Jumping at a small sanctioned meet at Folsom High School, the cross
wind was difficult to manage in the warm up, but once the bar went up, it
turned into a nice tail wind. Unfortunately, due to a lack of confidence
fashioned by that cross, I started on too small of poles…..again. So you can
guess what happened, attempt one; pole too small, attempt two; bigger pole, standards
up a bit, brushed it off on the way up, attempt three; standards all the way
back, pole way to small, and that’s a wrap. I tried taking two jumps after the
meet on the next pole, but the fact that I could not even get over one height
surrounded me in a cloud of melancholy that was unshakable for the next few
hours.
This small early schedule I
put together will act as a guide for my plans in the near future. I few
undecided issues still remain, that only time can decide.
What poles should I be on?
I have a set of 5m poles and
a set of 5.10m poles. After my back injury the 5.10’s seemed like a bit much.
But suddenly I am on my second to largest 5m pole with a healthy grip height,
leaving only 1 remaining in the bag that in all honesty, is not much bigger.
With a session or two more of building confidence or even a decent day of
consistent conditions, I fear I will suddenly find myself without large enough
poles in my bag, unless…..I pull out the 5.10’s. In the past I have always
pressed the issue. Feeling that in order to keep up with everyone else, I
needed to be on these longer poles. A change in equipment based off pure
anxiety, the transition always took some time. This is the first time, maybe
ever, that fruition has taken place, rendering me without other option. I see
it now as inevitability. So do I just get that set out, and put the 5m poles
away, or do I wait until I finish out the entire series before I make the
change in haste as I have in the past? The answer is still foggy, clouded by
facts like; My lifetime best is on 5m poles. I have pictures and video of me
well over 19’ in the air (at lower heights) with the 5.10 poles. I have
confidence in pole switches in my 5m series now. Will I have the same
confidence with the switches in 5.10’s? With my mid mark and take off step
having moved out significantly, its created more speed and a much better
position off the ground, I am blowing through poles, a lot, the 5.10’s should
slow that problem, and even on ‘blow-throughs’ give me a better chance of
clearing bars. If I choose to remain on 5m poles, and do run out of big enough
poles in competition, will I be able to pick up the corresponding or naturally
progressing 5.10 to follow in the series and take a jump on it with confidence
and no hesitation; where if I started the competition on 5.10’s only, that
issue cannot arise.
Where will I be jumping in
the weeks following Saturday at Sac State ?
Most likely the Olympic
Training Center as it is the only option close by (568 miles of California
traffic close by), and possibly a small meet at Stanislaus next Friday the 11th,
just because it’s my last chance to compete this season without major travel.
But that brings about more
questions.
What dates should I attend
the OTC? How frequently? How much travel can I handle and where is the tipping
point between beneficial for competition and detrimental to my body? Meets are
important, but health is more important.
I can’t quite put my finger
on these yet. The problem being that I crammed one too many competitions in and
now my body is showing signs of the overuse. I didn’t mention it before, but a
few weeks ago I had a minor relapse in me back, leaving me with zero reflex
response in my left leg that still hasn’t returned. If it was not April of,
most likely, my final Olympic Year, where I have yet too achieve an Olympic “A”
qualifying standard, I would have normal taken the proper amount of time off to
get my leg functioning properly again and pressure off the nerve branches
exiting my spine, but that is not the case. Time is short, and risks must be
taken. Having pressed through this problem and competed with surprisingly
positive results, other areas in my back and hip have taken notice to the
ongoing attack of nerve inflammation and are beginning the systematic lock down
of other muscle groups in an attempt to compensate or protect it. This as you
know, is a recipe for an additional injury. So yesterday and today consist of
roughly, nothing. Rest and recovery work leading up to the last crammed event,
where I plan to start high, and take the least amount of jumps possible while
also clearing some heights.
The combination of mental
overload due to both technical success, and performance failure, combined with
reminders of pain, has left me sleep free several evenings now my head filled
with too many questions lacking definitive answers.
I am having career changing
breakthroughs as a Vaulter, mentally and technically. As the saying goes, “when
the fire is hot, your cooking” or something along those lines. So I want to continue
down this path of breakthrough that keeps leading in the direction of, bigger
poles, more runway speed, more grip height, more confidence, and ultimately
more air time. At the same time, if I continue to press to hard I risk season
ending injury, and/or I am only 50-75% of myself, forcing a result that is no
longer available to me, then I will never really know what was truly possible. A
conundrum of sorts, but one I must understand, find the proper balance point
and overcome. In this situation I can search for advice from all over, but in
the end I have to find the answer from within. I am the only one who can listen
for it, piece together all the necessary variables and find the solution.
Frustration has to be moved aside, and patience put in its place, and in my
opinion I’m becoming a master in this area. So to use a variation of the same word, a favorite to Agent Smith in the Matrix, twice in one essay…. Success
is, though troublesome, inevitable.
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